last night

i woke up from the worst nightmare that ive ever had.

it symbolized so many of my serious thoughts and worries lately that its scary.

i remember literally all of it,

down to what i was wearing and what the text that malcolm sent me said.

for some reason, ive always taken my dreams extremely seriously, so its made me do nothing but think today.

on the bright side,though, it prompted me to start writing, which is something i havent done in over a year.

im excited to be able to start back up.

man

i really need to get back in the swing of work/class/studying.
the time has definitely come that im really wanting to not go at all.

thank god for spring break!
im on the lookout for some new friends right about now.
well, kinda.

i just miss the days that everyone was down to go out all the time and have tons of fun.
not just sitting at my house, watching tv.
soooo boring.

im pretty sure

this is my next tattoo.

this is horrible.

everytime i think that im completely over it,
something stabs me right in the heart.

i wish i was still my unattatched, free-spirited, romantic self.
sometimes i wish i never even started dating malcolm.
i just dont know what to do, anymore.
i hate to be so negative right now, but im tired of being let down.

i have

stress coming at me from all sides.
still, im doing my best to forget about it.

someone come drink a 40 with me.

sunday night.

listening to does it offend you, yeah?, danger, broken social scene, tears for fears.
studying for spanish, chemistry and english!

this weekend was better than it should have been.
my thigh is sore, but the sparrow looks beautiful.
we combined two sailor jerry flash pictures to combine one awesome tattoo.
im very happy with the way it turned out.
tom rulzzz.

also, my grandparents spent 200 dollars on groceries for us.
our fridge is completely full and im excited to make eggplant stacks tomorrow night.
though the las few days were nice,
i dont have high hopes this week/weekend as i have tests all week and work every night.
.....
you win some, you lose some; i suppose.

dreamer.

im in my own world.
waiting for the real world and mine to collide.
for what i want to happen and whats going to happen to parallel.
when whats best for me and my desires to become the exact same thing.

when that day comes, ill be the happiest girl on earth.

tomorrow

calls for good weather again and no work means im going to take full advantage.
belle isle and pbr 40s are definitely a must.

also:
sunday panda veg, hookah bar and the free japanther show at rumors will certainly make for a busy day.
the weather has put me in such a great mood.
im very excited about spending the spring on brunswick.

mezza

this week i started my new job at mezza.
its this awesome family-run mediterranean restaurant on main street.
and it means the hard times are over!

it also means i can get a new, much overdue tattoo.
even though the past two weeks have been a little rough, things are definitely clearing up.