lately

ive been seriously contemplating going vegan.
besides not eating meat, veganism's prohibition of all animal products makes it extremely difficult to abide by in everyday life.
(the only reason i havent done it already)
sometimes i think its more logical, though. why support part of the animal product industry and not all of it?
what i mean is, whats the point of being halfway on an issue that im supposed to be taking a whole-hearted stand on?

this is has been my rationale lately.
this week ill probably be thinking more about what to do.

today i rode my bike to belle isle. nice, but very scary. since my brake isnt really working right now, i was riding fixed down the downtown slopes of richmond.
im such a baby about it, too.

also, im sad to say that i missed out on the french film festival this weekend.
it was really expensive and i have no extra cash and therefore i couldnt attend.
maybe next year.
i almost made it to the reception party with all the french directors and actors that were here, but sometimes i dont think and say no without realizing the opportunity at stake.
my mistake.

hayy

how on earth did it become thursday?
better yet, how did it become the end of march?

there are a lot of exciting things coming up:
weekend (that im not working!), slaughterama (haha), neko case!, ratatat!, summer and warm weather.
though today is dreary, im in a really good mood.

i feel kind of bipolar lately.

last night my mom threatened to make me come back home at the end the school year.
as much as i miss a few people there, if i was forced to live there again, i would just completely break away from my family.

i could never handle that area again.
i mean, i know that at times richmond is a little ridiculous and hard to handle, but this is where i should be.
not in hickory with a bunch of spoiled, stuck up "country girls".
obviously im just going to have to wait and see what happens, but i cant help but be full of anger/sadness/ worry and about twenty other emotions all combined.

chesapeake gave me nothing but a warped view on how to live and how to be happy.

this week

i think im going to start looking for another job so that ill have two over the summer.
if i save a lot before may, then i wont be nearly as poor as im expecting to be for the months of june and july.

also, this week is going to be another serious school and study week. ive got two tests and a paper and an exam to do. BRING IT.
trying to keep the optimism going throughout friday.

this weekend should be good. friends visiting, good weather and im throwing a party on saturday!
still looking for someone to spin, but thats not too major of an issue at this point.
im thinking dancey songs but throwing in a few 80s songs every once in a while.

last week was an interesting one. there were way too many weird situations that i put myself in, but oh well. i had a good st. patricks day.
everythings over and thank god!

leo is still being shy. he comes out basically only at night and to eat.
its really upsetting.

SPRING BREAK

was a nice break.
i missed everyone at home so much.
and the wave, of course.
the worst part ever, though, was not being able to spend more time with rachel while there.
stupid security guards.

also, we got a new cat named leonardo!
hes still being a little shy, but has definitely opened up the last few days.

im waiting for the weather to get nicer up here so that i can ride my new bike more. seriously, im in love with it.

2:46 p.m.

im sitting on my back porch, listening to neko case and reading the fountainhead (by ayn rand).

this is the greatest day ever.

thank god.

i actually went to the clinic today.

turns out, i have strep throat. and have had it for a week!

i got some medicine, though, and im feeling better already.

this week is almost over and im getting more and more excited about friday the thirteenth.

itll be like the summer all over again. im so happy that things are back to normal, and that i can look forward to hanging out with rachel and everyone else, again.

itll be a perfect break from the 804.

hahaha this is eight months old!

tonight

we got at least five inches of snow.
main street looked really beautiful covered in it.
and for some reason, for us snow equals chaos so courtney and i decided to walk in the middle of the street and throw snow all over the place.

we also got a new, temporary roommate.
which could potentially become a problem, but i guess we will see.
he needed a place, we had a room with two open couches and the rest is history.
only time will tell, i guess.
if anything, i think itll be nice to have someone around. someone that i can hang out with when court is (so often these days) not around.

tonight he made us delicious tofu stir fry and then cleaned the house!
it was the greatest.

class is cancelled until 11am tomorrow, but im starting to dread this chemistry exam that i have at 1pm.
just like last time, im slacking off mid-semester but im trying to learn from my mistakes and catch myself before its too late. hence, actually studying and caring that i have an exam tomorrow afternoon.

hopefully i finish my bike by the end of the week, or at least by spring break. who knew getting bicycle parts would be so difficult!
im excited, though. i mean, its something that i actually built. i get to ride around on a bicycle that was constructed by me.
and now ill have a cruiser and a single speed. im stoked to build up my bike collection.