hahaa.

i really hate the thought of getting political in a blog, but

this is too funny to keep hidden on my computer.

haha,

people are so clever!

today i worked for WAY too long.

being surrounded by beads and jewelry can take a toll on a persons peace of mind.

seriously.

anyway, after work i rode home and headed to the library in an attempt to get some much needed studying done.

naturally, there was distraction after distraction and i ended up barely doing anything.

just as i began to give up on the day (and myself),

there it was.

SOMETHING TO BE OPTIMISTIC ABOUT!

the friends of the library book sale (that ended friday) has an unorganized mess of books left over between the aisles on the second floor.

and instead of cleaning it up, theyve decided to give the assorted literature away!
yes, give everything away. for free.

needless to say i walked out with plenty of reading.

my grabs included:

a dictionary of art and artists

i journalist book on invasions of privacy

"the discovery of the individual"

"the loved and the envied"

and more!

SO STOKED.

"2 men accused of planning massacre, targeting Obama"

holy shit!
so, i just read about how two skinheads
plotted to kill 88 african-americans, then "drive as fast as they could towards Obama, shooting at him from the windows".

they planned on robbing homes for money, stealing guns, going on a killing spree and then assassinating obama.
i mean, i know that there are people that dont support obama

(everyones entitled to his or her own opinion) but who wants him dead?!

p.s. the two guys were 18 and 20!
a little young to be making such extravagent killing plans, dont you think?

ive been so busy lately i dont know what to do with myself.

blahblahblah.

im excited for:

paycheck monday

halloween

of montreal

BULDING MY OWN BIKE

ect.

also, im quitting smoking.

no more american (free) spirits.

R.I.P

angel.

you were the most beautiful cat ive ever seen.

we'll miss you.

completely

emotionally worn down.
i cant act like i dont care anymore, because i do.
which is the problem.

i need a new life here.
i need to try harder to separate myself.

my tarot:
"in order to find out the truth with others, you need to be honest with yourself first. you need to seek the truth and figure out how you truly feel."
i guess its true.

sorry everyone, for my fuck you post.
sorry rachel.
maybe im a little irrational sometimes, but im done forgiving everyone.

IF

youre writing missed connections
and making all these different attempts to get my attention,
why cant you just do it when were actually together??

ill never understand you.
ive gone the lonesome, dramatic, timid-boy route.
and i didnt like it.

i can appreciate honesty. and manners.
youve definitely got manners.
maybe a little honesty.


maybe we can save the world together and live in south america together one day.

good music; good writing.

"things in life is either flesh or money, like they cant be both at the same time. that would be like them being both alive and dead" (rant)

rant is a book that kind of disgusts me, but i think that was palahniuk's intention.
and i can appreciate shocking, abnormal literature.
the book is like a modern-day satire, almost.

he wrote something terribly disgusting and disturbing in hopes of people rethinking certain things about themselves and societal ideals.
it emphasizes peoples obsession with life, money, status and how ridiculous it is; how people are so quick to ignore major problems and issues because theyre caught up in things are unimportant.
maybe this is why chuck palahniuk is all the rage right now.

check him out HERE----->
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fO9FIRDjJTM
i guess hes got such a way with storytelling because hes a fictional writer.

coffee, cigarettes and globalization knowledge

made for a really interesting night.

i like being interested in people and figuring things out.

tomorrow im going to ALL my classes and going job-searching.

im going start saving money so i can move here permanently or at least have a home here other than these disgusting dorms.

i think it will be something to secure things more and force me to balance my time better.

and i mean, theres nothing wrong some extra $$$. right??

p.s. I WANT THIS!!

The Toyger cat is a medium sized, short haired domestic cat reminescent of a toy tiger. Designed with a modern city life with humans in mind, it is an intellegent and willing companion animal, active and highly trainable. Color and markings are that of a satin toy while type suggests a big cat---long bodied and tailed, large boned and muscular, round ears, large chin-leading muzzle with broad nose tip. This cat will one day resemble a tiny, shiny toy tiger on leash or playing with the kids.

the cutest thing ive ever seen.

if i was crying

in a van, with my friend,

it was for freedom;

from myself and from the land.

i made a lot of mistakes.

i made a lot of mistakes.

i made a lot of mistakes.

i made a lot of mistakes.

dont think of it as goodbye forever.

its weird how people have made goodbyes such a difficult thing to do.
maybe its just the worry that things will never be the same.

maybe its the comfort of having a familiar body with you for a brief time and realizing how perfect it is.

maybe its just something that people werent meant to have to do.

we'll miss you, indianians.