!!!???

lately ive been really interested in listening to music that evokes this sort of nostalgic, emotional feeling in my body.
i know it sounds weird, maybe even pathetic, but i like the feeling.

like, when you know that music is good. when you listen to song and get this weird, borderline creepy smile on your face because it brings back memories of when you sat with someone at the village for hours smoking cigarettes and drinking coffee and laughing.
or when you sat outside of your apartment with your best friends crying over your supposed unhappiness.

or even when you hear a persons voice and it makes you think back to someone that you miss terribly and would love to be able to talk to, but cant.
thats the kind of music i can really appreciate, especially because its something that happens naturally.

i mean, when the smashing pumpkins became a band and began creating music did they think that people would feel this way about their songs?
i can only imagine it being something they only hoped for.

again, it takes me back to this idea thats been really hanging over my head lately.
this concept that we all eventually feel this certain way and for some ridiculous reason, insist on feeling alone. or coping with the help of cigarettes and 40s. or coping with a continous superficiality and slowly realizing that we are all the same.